To the one I lost

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Oh how I miss you

You broke my heart on that spring day
It was the day after my birthday
To find you dead in our bed
All I could do was shake my head
as to was going through your head
to put a built in your chest

To have to tell your parents that they
have to burry yet another son
To hear your mom scream was a nightmare

It was something I did not want to tell them
I would have had an easier time telling them another
reason as to why you died.

Now I have to try to move on and how to deal with the pain
The image of you laying there is something that wont get out of my head
To know I will never be able to lay my head on your chest again
Now I have to do my best not being able to hear your voice again

All I want to know is why
Why did you feel the need to get that drunk and kill yourself
What I wouldn't give to have you back and to tell you that I love you one more time
To have you in my arms and feel your chest hairs tickling me in the nose.
You have no idea how deeply you have impacted my life by finding you that way.
Losing you was the worst thing that I had to do.
I cant get the image of you laying in our bed out of my head
I don't celebrate my birthday anymore.
I still love you to this day even many years later.