Darker parts

Seems like the days got longer while the nights grew colder

I thought that I was wiser but I guess I'm only older

And the fact that my mistakes have put the world upon my shoulders

with chains around my ankles, attached to giant boulders

I've been sinking down to rock bottom, problems, I got 'em

Mentality rotten, left with all I've got in my pocket ; my two cents

My mind that's be come a nuisance and all I can say is there's no escape from this

Spittin' piss and vinegar while I try to ignite the fire that died inside the hollow eyes of this rotten liar

The more I try to retrace the events, the things that led to this, all I find is more regrets topped off with meaninglessness.

Now I'm left with the mess, with nothing left, if life was a test, I'd roll it up and smoke my self to the death

between the bars of insanity and beyond the edge of the cliff

Spoken like a bitter bastard, plastered, with half a pint of jack left next to the ganja on his night stand

A wasted youth in a worthless world, I'm wasting words.

I'd rather die alone, but I'll take you with me

Hell is not a place, but a pain that dwells within me.

I just feel so fed up that I don't even want to get up.

I just don't have what it takes to do this again today.

You really think I care at all? I live like I'm already gone,

a lost soul, damned to roam this world alone,

Nothing to lose, but this hell that I'm living in

so I live in sickening decadence in an attempt at entering into heaven

But I'm a hell sent Satanic reverend, with 72 demons and one in the chamber

and I keep it aimed directly at my own temple.

Everything is temporary except for the poison coursing through my veins

these thoughts are toxic, I can't sleep, I'm feeling nauseous

everything I've ever lost is in my head it's so obnoxious

It's like a constant competition just to make a decent living so that

I can keep my place, living numb inside this prison.

It's like I'm a different person, every loss a lesson learned

in how to get burned in every facet of my life.

So go ahead and judge me, your words are worthless

you can't hurt me any worse 'cause I've been cursed with what they call a clarity of purpose

with an eternal yearning for higher learning,

this fire's been burning internally for eternity

infernal knowledge helped me grow wiser than Nostradamus

sharpening my words until I can cut through the mindless,

insanity flooding the planet In which I'm standing in

I'm screaming at the top of my lungs but no one's understanding!