Where Did We Go?

First off, I want to say I'm sorry. This apology comes from the most sincere and raw parts of my heart. Over the years, you became my best friend. With opposite personalities and almost nothing instantly in common, you became a sister to me. So what went wrong? Please tell me. Because you're the second best friend I have lost. I understand people change, and life moves on...but, I really tried to keep up with our friendship. I tried to see you. I tried to talk to you. I listened, and gave advice. Please, tell me, what went wrong? I'm hurting. Maybe I didn't try hard enough...and if that is the case, I am sorry. Why are you doing this to us? I understand we have no classes together this year, but that shouldn't' define our friendship...should it? You're becoming very close with another person this year. You see her everyday. That shouldn't affect our friendship...right? Please tell me why it does. I tried to talk to you about it, and you shrugged it off. Stating you just simply don't have classes with me this year. Does that mean we shouldn't be friends? She's all you ever talk about now. You talked to her on the phone last night, and sent her a sweet message over text. I never got to experience that. You never told me how great I was. You never told me how I deserved the world. Did I not deserve that? Am I not good enough a friend for that message? I'm still trying. I want us to be friends. I want us to be how we used to be. Why don't you ever talk to me anymore? I don't hear about your life. I miss you.
I miss you...but fuck you. Fuck you for using me. I'm hurting and you are moving onto a new friend because she is more convenient. I tried being there for you, and you're going to throw it away, and step on our friendship as if it is a cigarette you are trying to put out. Fuck you....I don't want to hurt anymore...I want to be okay...