Old Grey Mare Ain't What She Use to BE!

So glad that I am feeling better although not yet 100%. However, over the past few days, my children have made me actually start thinking about my quality of life, and more importantly, my future.

One told me that she was very disappointed in me, and reminded me of two things -- I'm getting old and older people and babies die from pneumonia.

Another daughter told me that she is tired of having this conversation with me, i.e., "I am not as young as I use to be, I am not a doctor, and she needs me to do a better job of taking care of me." She went on further to express that I must learn how to take care of me and that there are people in this world that needs me to stay here as long as I can. Her final words were call the doctor and call me back. (Sounds like instructions I use to give.)

Finally, my son stepped in and in that Alpha male tone and voice, I was told that he was tired of playing with me; that I was not as funny. My health is important. I need to untangle myself from some of the responsibility that I have taken on, and to focus more on me. He further noted that if I could not do it, he could.

NONE of this is negative! It is the showing and showering of love by those who love me.

All of my children and grandchildren have told me and tell me frequently how proud they are of my years of accomplishment, and my current work and love for people. I know they are and I also know that they are very protective of me because they love me.

Right now, I am focusing on getting well quickly. That means learning to say no, missing some meetings and resting. My ex-husband said many years ago, the old grey mare ain't what she used to be, -- to which I added, and she show Lord ain't what she's gonna be -- but there is a time to step back and assess where you want to be!

Maybe that is all they are trying to tell me.