fragile.

ive been breaking silently
and you cant see.
if only i could change my grade in life at least to a D.
wanna destroy everything outside of my body.
so i can physically see what my soul looks like.
it would be warlike.
fuck it all.
have a ball.
burn everything.
turn it all to dust.
so ill feel like a king.
dont know why im so fragile.
breaking from the cold.
this is getting way too fucking old.
cant step out of the past,
still falling way too fast.
im tired of these nights.
just cant win these fights.
though im still here,
doesnt mean i wanna be.
loving everyone who doesnt love me.
being someone i dont wanna be.
seeing flaws i dont wanna see.
happiness is the key.
but i cant find it.
guess god swallowed it.
this cant be.
i thought he loved me.
i thought wrong.
cant do shit with my life and it feels so long.
tired.
fuck you. im not ok.
suicidal thoughts every god damn day.
i cant do it anyway.
dont know why im so fragile.
breaking from the cold.
this is getting too fucking old.
cant step out of the past,
still falling way too fast.
im tired of these nights.
just cant win these fights.
tell me im not as fucked up as i think i am.
but my demons wont talk.
all they do is walk.
pacing.
smiling in my face and
i dont know if i can take it.
cause im breaking.
fucking shaking.
too much shit ive been taking.
dont know why im so fragile.
breaking from the cold.
this is getting way too fucking old.
cant step out of the past,
still falling way too fast.
im tired of these nights.
just cant win these fights.
cant deal with this thought.
if i was a fucking astronaut.
id take my helmet off.
no, i wouldnt.
cause im still so fucking fragile.
still breaking from the cold.