The change

This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

So, it's time for another round of " I don't wanna." But for some reason I actually do, at least partly, wanna. I'm been hiding from my responsibilities, and I've finally grown sick enough of what I'm doing to waste time. Instead, I'm letting myself listen to God. I prayed a few days ago---Wednesday, I think--- and the next morning I awoke full of energy. Usually I lie in bed for at least an hour. But that day, I simply couldn't. I tried. After fifteen minutes, I was out of bed and in the shower. I just blew through the usual tasks, such as showering and dressing and feeding the critters. I walked three blocks to my church, then walked around it, praying. By 9:30 I was home, fed, and willing to start on housework. By 10:30, I could legitimately stop and rest. I felt so productive.

Before this, I'd be awake about 6:30, and on my feet at 8:45. Then would come all the things like showering. I'd take my medication close enough to on time, and get downstairs to feed the cats or myself. Someone always had to wait. Then I'd sit at the computer, doing nothing important until lunch. I'd waste the day like this. Sometimes I'd wash dishes before my husband came home, to make it seem like I'd done something that day. I'd check WDC, but not write. But I asked God to help me, and now I have tons of energy. I'm enthusiastic about life. I'm truly blessed and letting God lead me is enormously life-changing. I'm happier than I have been in a long time. I just had to write this down. See you later.