The Tears That Have Fallen

The pain ripped a hole through my chest
I couldn't bear it
I was never at my best
But if I ever tried to talk about it my parents threw a fit
The tears fell down my face in waves
My own thoughts have brought me here
I can't change the way my brain behaves
I am alone among all my peers
I hide my tears with a smile
My pain is hidden with a laugh
People come but they leave after a while
Maybe life is a big rough draft
And it will just be changed for the worst
If eyes are the windows to the soul
Why did no one see my heart was in a hearse
My heart is a cold lump of coal
All I can feel is the cold
The pain and despair fill my head with dark thoughts
I continue to act as I am told
Nobody will know how hard I have fought
This is it
I am done
My friends will never know the pain I felt
My family will never see how many tears have fallen
This is IT
I am DONE
I don't blame you or not seeing how much I hurt
I kept it all inside
This IS IT
I AM DONE
My tears have fallen like the rain
THIS IS IT
I AM DONE
The world is just like the clouds during a storm
Some times the sun shines through for a few blissful moments
Before it is hidden by the rain
THIS IS IT
I AM DONE
Finally my time has come
I AM done
Let me tell all of those kids out there
I am done
Scream your pain out to the world
Don't keep it bottled up
That was the death of me
Depression is bad
So is the world
But let it effect you like it did me
Find your lantern to guide your way
I will always regret
The tears that have fallen