My Longed Desire

         

My          Longed Desire

I can't wait for him to leave. Hopefully, the day comes soon. Ever since he came, I longed for him to just leave and never come back. Hopefully, when he leaves this time, it will be the last time I see him. Since he is gone all but 2 months, the most, of the year I've gotten used to not having him around. When he does show though, he is like a stranger. A stranger I could disengage. A stranger that doesn't get the message. A stranger that keeps coming back to a place he doesn't belong. This time should be the last time I see him. I can't remember the last time I talked to him. He was never there for me when I needed him the most. He doesn't get it. He will never get it. He never will get that what he missed can't be made up for. No matter how hard he tries, he just can't do it. Hopefully when he leaves this time, I hope he doesn't look back. I hope he doesn't come back. When he is around he makes me feel invisible. Hopefully, this is the last time he makes me feel invisible. I can't stand feeling invisible. He is a stranger in my home. He will never get it. He will never get that I just want him gone and out of my life.