Anxiety

Separation of myself unto you
I trust with despair
Dark and dreary thoughts for
Someone else has put me there.

Taken piece by piece by piece
and never recovered
More and more I drowned
In this secret well uncovered

I try to breathe slowly
Making careful waves
Silently struggling
Looking to the one who cares and saves

Hopelessness fills my heart
Pounding steady and hard
Painful waves of memories
My bravery is barred

Stranded here in my head
Looking wide and around
This endless well of struggle
Is a desperate noiseless sound

Screaming replaces silence
looking around to see
the screaming of a mad woman
I realize it's me

Waiting for you to hold me
To say it will be ok
Looking into your blank eyes
Waiting for something you won't say

The anxiety is overwhelming
In a sense that is so true
Gripping tightly at the throat
And the source of it is you

Piecing me back together
Was something I never asked
Support to fix myself
Too fractured to last

Looking in the mirror now
Looking at me
Startling myself
For a stranger I see

Beyond repair I feel I am
Too broken to be fixed
You say the feeling is still there
But the signals are mixed

Convenience of day
Is how I came to be
Doing as should maid should
This is all, This is me.