Trust issues

Sometimes i wished that he could see,
The actual damage inside of me.
From all those lies, flirtatious texts
Dirty email, the pics, the sexts
You told me it was over, said it wasn't true!
But the only thing not true was you!
Spoon fed me bullcrap, first dipped in your charm,
Promised to never lead me to harm.
Eight years I tried, eight years I rode,
But then you know men,, them and their code:
She's JUST your baby mama, but you gave me your heart!
You chose me, you put me in your cart!
Brought me more fairy tales, picked up more lines,
I loved your personality, you was the star that shines!
Now my heart is turning to rust,
It's bleeding out the all that trust.
That once happy space we called home,
No other females, no worries, where we could roam.
I guess I'll never be her, the only one,
I wanna give up, I wanna be done!
Forget being pregnant by you!
There's one thing I asked you to do!
Always be loyal, forever be true to me.
But you turned my lights off, now I can't seem to see.
My smile, my love, feelings about to be lost.
But she's more important, those women, at any cost.
That'll be the last time you smile in my face,
Pretending to love me, pretending to embrace.
Acting like you've been truthful all this time,
But behind my back, you committing crime,
Telling me one thing, telling that bitch another,
Calling her late,then entertaining the other...
Sometimes I just cry, I grab a couple tissues,
And you steady wondering why I got trust issues...