Broken Branches

I lie here not knowing if I’m awake or asleep
I quickly open my eyes to realize the reality I once knew no longer exist
I no longer exist
A darkness now consumes me
Leaving me just a shell of my former self
Evil and rage are now my only thoughts
Evil because my past has come back to haunt me
And rage because I cant change what has already been done

The hours and days pass
And the darkness gets deeper and darker
The evil continues to grow
As does the rage
I begin to hope this is just a nightmare
That I cant awake from
Or a daydream that is ongoing
Or I’m in limbo between life and death and this my punishment

This is my reality now
Afraid to close my eyes at night because of the Demons that haunt me
Afraid to open my eyes because I cant face myself
But this is who I am this is what I’ve become

Then I abruptly awake from this nightmare and shaken from my daydream
And my reality becomes clear
And I wonder if any of this or that was real
Is what we once had true
Was she ever real
I can’t make her real
She isn't real
She’s just a myth I once believed in