why

I'm so hurt,so confused,so lost.
I love your love,but I hate the lies.
Why is it ok?
Why do you hurt me so?
You've torn my heart to shreads,
And Pretended...pretended it wasn't your fault.
My heart still yearns your love.
I can't get over you, you're my drug, my heroin,my everything.
Why do I feel this way?
You've taken so much from me and what do I get?
NOTHING...I get nothing.
I feel you've been using me.
Like I'm just a rag doll being used to wipe up grease.
Do I really deserve to feel like this?
What did I do to get this dis-respect?
Am I really nothing to you?
You looked me in my eyes and said you loved me.
I now see the truth.
I'm sitting here writing,writing my goodbyes.
I'm sitting here trying to clear my mind,trying to understand,trying to believe.
To believe we actually had somthing,somthing you couldn't see?
I feel there is no one but you.
I wish you were here,to cuddle me,to love me.
You seemed so perfect.
Now I see what they mean.
Now I see the lies, but why do I still love you?