Where He Abides

Where He Abides

I keep on wondering why I can't seem to apologize to my lonesome self. I disturbed my mental health.

I feel it deep down in my soul, I've finally given God all control. I'm learning to let everything go.

Every pain, every tear, every heartache, every fear. I'm finally starting to see myself clear.

I now realize I have reason to cheer. The Lord is my savior. I am blessed and highly favored.

It was me that got in my way. I turned away from brighter days.

I'm discovering my voice inside. I'm realizing where God's love abides.

He's always been inside of me, even when I wouldn't see. 

Even when I wouldn't try, God made sure I'd stay alive.

And I'm thankful I survived despite myself and my strife, despite my thoughts to end my life.

God kept me here. He helping me to face my fears.

God's helping me to find my way a little more each and every day.

I kept looking for a reason why. I've been searching for some circumstance or situation to explain my heart's frustration.

I've gotta learn to love myself. Reduce my self degradation and increase my inclination towards elevation.