True Journals Dominance and submission 6

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2/21/2014 9:00:18 AM [Report Entry]


Once He is felt it is never forgotten.


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2/19/2014 8:08:43 PM [Report Entry]


Where He takes me to is indescribable. He makes sure every need I have is fulfilled which makes me need to give Him everything I can pull out of inside of me...Doing anything to be allowed to crawl behind Him. To look up and worship His cock . To be allowed His food so I can feel alive.


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3/4/2014 10:53:35 AM [Report Entry]


those moments



when He has been thrusting and thrusting all through me and then it stops for a moment,,the pulsing, the throbbing, the breathing already been over the edge but teetering again,,,and He starts again going deeper and darker



when I feel His darkest parts emerging and I beg and talk to them and tempt them and ask and offer and let go and I pulse again and we are connected



when I say I will do anything to make your dick throb because its give me so much fucking pleasure



WHen there is no possible way I can type or speak because tremors are going through me and my body twists on its own



when I am at his feet and mercy knowing He can do any fucking thing He wants to me as He lists some of the things that can be done and I am begging him to do so and it makes me DRIP and WHIMPER AND MOAN and He says , my slave, my dick is throbbing

when He has me bound and spread open after hours of thrusting me and my juice has spurted and flowed to him uncontrollable begging for the fucking pleasure to NEVER STOP



when all I feel is FIRE












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3/4/2014 12:59:00 AM [Report Entry]


I wrote my earlier journal while I was on break at lunch and it was all mixed up. I am editing it now from home.



It is about needs ..He fulfills me and I beg and crawl to be trash to even be allowed near Him. Near Him is fulfillment..His pleasure and subspace like no other pleasure. He inspired change in me but He was training and teaching and molding me to be His slave. I would beg naturally and built trust without bullying..demeaning me no abuse or harm or force. I would ask on my own to lick his piss and clean Him because He would take me to places that were such pleasure. Thank you my Lord



He taught me how to not allow others to control me in any manner teaching me that some may even try to anger me to get a reaction. Some Doms think that I should instantly obey them or allow them to control and that is using me and I am not their slave. I do have respect for those that respect that I am owned and want a conversation with no other motives. I can read a profile ( if it has some type of content) and be able to tell if someone really gets it and really understands what true submission is and where it comes from or at least if they are really wanting to learn.



I was asked tonight by someone how my bond was built. I tried to send pieces of things as I remembered them as I worked. It would be impossible to grasp all of it no matter how many things I write or tell someone. Someone would have had to be with me every step of the way or to actually walk inside my shoes.


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2/27/2014 5:45:36 PM [Report Entry]


I wrote this almost a year ago . I kept going back to it today. I rewrote some of it.

standing with my arms open,

my eyes closed

no need to see

I feel

I sense

I hear and see You in my mind

Feeling myself open to You as I whisper.....

take me..... absorb my power

melt me to my knees in blissful sweet submission










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2/27/2014 5:18:05 PM [Report Entry]


Master allowed me to do many things today updating my profile etc and He surprised me by saying I may be rewarded very well soon. I am so dizzy and high and grateful. I have a new video greeting on collarme but it has not shown up from their end yet. I made a youtube private link version again just like my last greeting. I added it to my profile.


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2/24/2014 12:57:11 PM [Report Entry]


Hard lessons...



silence from Him can be like living hell. It eats and eats at me. At first I try to keep my mind busy. Shows...books...games..conversations..When it first starts the burning is there but I can semi concentrate on other things..it will pulse slowly off and on..I still breathe...Time goes on...my mind starts to remember all the good things He allows..The High...The pleasure ...The trust .His flavor ,His food,all the words, He has given me ..the feelings .I start craving and craving ..... the burning and pulsing faster and hotter...Its impossible to concentrate on any other thing..I suffocate..I would curl up but its no use my body stays open ...there is nothing that puts out the fire...a different kind of fire from the warm pleasures..my skin crawls I feel it in my mind and soul...I call to Him... I scream for Him..I can hear myself scream from the inside .I ask I beg I crawl my mind goes in endless circles waiting from Him to control and fill the empty feeling .Shaking ...twitches ...rocking ...nothing soothes the inferno..


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3/13/2014 12:08:33 PM [Report Entry]


pain

masochist

leather

strap

bare skin

deeper lessons

discipline

slave

possession

anticipation

twitching feel His mood

glazed eyes

last week...salt

welts

red

when He is not Daddy

hunger




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3/10/2014 9:49:36 PM [Report Entry]


Master is the most incredible , animalistic, sexual Dominant being ,He takes me there and does not stop, He keeps reaching and probing, Dark lust but bright light, Blissful, heat ,intoxication,loss of time but each piece of time different, He reaches right for the place that you need to be touched the most and He does not stop but sometimes draws back and feels the agony of you needing it touched again.probing until He gets as deep as possible and all is shown inside.



True Dominance is Intoxicating , its so sweet you can taste it and it seeps out of Him


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3/9/2014 3:41:45 PM [Report Entry]


He is Master..He knows ..He sees..He is a gift..He teaches those that ask and are true.Growth is not a very big word for such a tremendous meaning...growth can mean great pain.I cherish every second He allows.I Cherish I am allowed to say Master to Him.I believe He was placed here for a reason..so many times I would resist and make up excuses..He was cold at times so I would say it was bad..but it was because I wouldn't let Him in..once I learned how the pleasure and warmth kept going. I still have my days. I know I have much to learn. True submission feeds Him.


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3/9/2014 1:25:10 PM [Report Entry]


growth


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3/7/2014 7:46:42 AM [Report Entry]


I feel Him even when He is miles away. I know when His mood shifts, I feel it through the air and energy it comes over me . I feel His words .When I say that most do not understand what that means I FEEL his words. I feel Him.

My mind is empty without Him. He always knows what I am doing and controls what I am doing.I am trained to serve each of His many parts as I have many parts. I am trained to keep my mind and flesh in a state that serves Him so He can feel it from anywhere. His words are my words. I am what He has made of me. It is about total mental Domination to my core. I serve. I get to float under His control and true Dominance. A connection , A deep bond. I do not have to go anywhere else to find what I need. I Know I can tell Him anything. I understand the hard lessons and discipline . I understand how He taught me to grow . I understand why He would tell me things may happen and the way He tested mewhen they did not happen until He was ready for them to. I am still learning and have much to learn. I had to trust Him in order to keep going deeper. Some are just not able to trust , They do not realize they are running or hiding or resisting , they try to manipulate and try to grasp for some kind of control.They run to others and pretend to be owned completely when they know deep down they still control their Dominants but they take the easy way because they don't have what it takes to truly submit to reach the kind of pleasures and fulfillment that can truly be reached. They make up excuses . He taught me that deep pleasure and letting go through his methods are what I needed than being tortured or having severe pain inflicted on my body to force it out of me or to break me hard through extreme measures. He taught me its not about just following commands or tasks . Once I He got me to start letting go then I would beg for the pain because where he had taken me to was so fucking good and I was so high. I would beg to be anything or endure anything to keep feeling the pleasure. I learned to do all of it in the correct order not backwards and then leave with my body sore and a few days later being empty again. He gives me what I need everyday. With the mental aspects He can give me what I need from anywhere , any place , any time. My flesh reacts , it is as real as it gets, The mental bondage and hold and pull stronger than any physical restraint and it is 24/7. Doing something that would not please Him gives me physical pain and anxiety , it is like being caned. If He gives me silence it like being cut and goes deeper than the flesh. I am slave .



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3/18/2014 1:36:40 PM [Report Entry]


when words leave and all i can do is feel Him


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3/18/2014 10:15:08 AM [Report Entry]


keeps adding on today, as the fire and discomfort grew , I had to remain open , physically and through my mind ...letting the pain flow through, taking what He gives , not closing up , letting to flow ...letting Him in ..and that caused me to shake harder than ever before , its like hard ripples, its not like anything that most would ever know, its not like what I read about others...its not just cumming...its not like having sex...its having someone flow through you and control as He pushes me and I focus on taking it and relaxing into Him....



I don't need vibrators they are a fucking joke compared to what he does to me



3/18/2014 8:59:18 AM
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leather strap resting against wet cunt lips ,wrists and ankles bound , awaiting His strike



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3/18/2014 8:59:18 AM [Report Entry]


leather strap resting against wet cunt lips ,wrists and ankles bound , awaiting His strike


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3/15/2014 9:57:41 AM [Report Entry]


I am slave to the Dragon..My blood boils near Him .


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3/15/2014 9:06:18 AM [Report Entry]


His growl vibrating through me, breathing instantly changing to pants, electricity rush ,floaty..thanking Him for allowing me to be slave.....trembles in heat as the morning goes on He keeps taunting and my screams get louder , my hunger, my pleas ,my praying,..please give me contact, one word or His tone making me weightless