The last Meeting

I dreamt the dream again
It repeats
Always the same
Built on borrowed uncertainty
An uncompromising battle within me
It shakes the very core of me
Lingers for days within
Then Draws out through my mouth
Opening the door to feelings
I'd rather stayed hidden

I'll be at the same meeting
It years since it happened
The intensity burned
My insides ached
His icy stare penetrated my heart

As I was leaving
My insides started screaming
As he was not following
This lead to this meeting
The last

During the night
I used to watch him
Constantly breathing
The steady rise and fall of his chest
I needed this certainty
As the moon that shared all my nights
With clenched fist and warm soft breath
Reassuring me for now
He was alive
The steady rise and fall of his chest

I had become his mistress
His other lover insisted
Keeping her talons in him
So he kept on descending into the furrows of the unknown
A place I would not follow
A place I would not go

I fought her for years
Then finally gave up my fears
Walked away in tears
This brought our last meeting
The last

I was standing
He was staring
The taxi waiting
My tears were spraying
My heart near breaking
My needing a fresh start

This form of addiction is far from forgiving
My love had equipped it from the start

Now I keep dreaming of the last meeting
The one that shattered my thoughts
We are both staring
The north wind is blowing
On the sun heated sidewalk

The heroin withdrawing from his blood
The scales were weighing
Between me and her
He had mistaken her love from the start

He started turning
My mind started reeling
My hands started shaking
As he kept on walking
So I keep on dreaming
Of the last meeting
The one that shattered my heart