Fleeting thoughts

Its been so long since I've touched a man
so baby I hope you can understand
just how much my fingers lack
the passion that I'm holding back,
and though before I have been burned,
I'm trying to remember lessons learned
and give you just enough so I can see
how much you really want from me.
Will I be more than your toy,
someone who's time you truly enjoy?
Or can we as lovers never be,
only enjoying our sex for free?
But for now its best not to think
as again into your arms I sink,
and try to enjoy the evenings bliss
as we embrace for tonight's first kiss.