Love Sick, Alone at the Bar

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Banksy & A Playlist for the Love Sick Individual Minus the Cheese
Banksy - "Love Sick"


“I mean, they say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time.”
#Banksy


Another favorite quote, by one of my favorites "Banksy"

Banksy is MY FAVORITE Graffiti Artist, a straight up rebel with a cause
& reason. His Stencil work is incredibly unique, intelligent and a pleasure to see up
close and personal, which living in Greenpoint I have had the opportunity to a lot of his work up close, it's almost like an unexpected present on the walk home from Williamsburg, because you'll be casually walking your usual route home and all of a sudden you'll happen to notice new work you haven't seen before and it's pretty much Christmas Morning, because you know there is more from where that came from.


Well, Whatever so i promised this playlist...

This play list goes out to all the love sick, pathetic individuals out there that can't either 1. Let it fucking go or 2. Still have some sort of hope

I know that my heart has not belonged to me in quite some time now, so naturally I have a few songs in the stash.

There's time's where i find myself out and about, around a group of energetic human beings, laughing and mixed up in a moment of true bliss and contentment. Dancing, Spilling their drinks all over me, stepping on my feet to flag down the bartender...






"Shots, Shots, Shots"
So happy and so eager to foot the bill on shots, living in the moment, toasting and what have you..
I haven't been involved in that sort of activity in a while.

I am usually the girl starring directly into her double of sailor Jerry and diet coke, with a dead stare. As if the answers to my future were floating amongst the remnants of the ice cubes in my glass.

Someone couldn't try to look more unapproachable if they tried, tried.. REAL HARD
This comes natural to me.

The Need to be alone and ponder.

I've started actually bringing my lap top and my headphones to the bar so i can take it an extra step further in being unapproachable.

Then there's always.. THAT GUY,
who has to drop the, "Smile"
line on me & this always gets me absurdly enraged
(not that i am saying this is a normal reaction)
But...
Still..

Smiling takes EFFORT, Smiling requires the use of alot of muscles in your face, it isn't a natural expression, i once fake smiled for a whole one hour meeting and my jaw hurt for a good remainder of my day.

Then, I'm like .. "Who is this guy to reprimand me and tell me what to do, does he even think before he speaks.. or is he just so cheesy he assumes this is a classic "go to" line.

Or maybe, I'm over thinking this completely
Maybe, I'm just fucked up..
Maybe, i wished i was somewhere else with someone else and i cant wipe the stain of this person's memory off my fucking forehead.

"DAMAGED GOODS" in NEON fucking PAINT MARKERS

Maybe i am just avoiding the potential of making good memories that might not include him, because i can't image such a thing.
I can't focus on couples around me, holding each other, embracing each other and sharing precious moments together.
I had that, i did.

Haven't had any moments since.
Not any good ones.

There is a part of me that knows daily, I have already found the one i am supposed to be with and that we are wasting precious time everyday, holding a grudge, walking around the city alone and lonely. Seeking out other people from time to time but being left unsatisfied.
Just because we feel like we should,
but we shouldn't.

I can't take shuffling through my picture library on my iphone with my glasses hanging half way off my face while walking with a drunk slant toward my apartment just so i can collapse on my bed and re stain my freshly cleaned pillow cases with eye liner, mascara and whatever else i use to clog my pores on a regular basis.

So this is for you lonely bar dwellers out there, hope this helps.

Death of my Insides Playlist:

1. "Keep you" - Class Actress
2. "Heartbeats" (i prefer the Live Version) - The Knife
3. "There is a light that never goes out" - The Smiths
4. "Unhappy Birthday" The Smiths
5. "Do you really want to hurt me?" Violent Femmes
6. "You are all i see" - Active Child
7."Bruises" - Chairlift
8. "Pretty Boy" - Young Galaxy
9. "Hey Jelousy" - Gin Blossoms
10. "Deep inside of you" - Third eye Blind
11. "Love Has Gone" - Netsky
12. "Last Dance" - Rhye
13. "Open" - Rhye
14. "Dirt" - Phish
15. "Don't look back in Anger"- Oasis
16. "Yellow Ledbetter" - Pearl Jam
17. "Black" - Pearl Jam
18. "Beyond here lies nothing" - Bob Dylan
19. "Helpless" - Crosby Stills Nash & Young
20. "Happy Together" - The Turtles
21. "The wind cries Mary" - Jimi Hendrix
22. "She's not there" - The Zombies
23. "Angie" -The rolling stones
24. "Wild World" - Cat Stevens
25. "Lotus Flower" - Radiohead
26. "There, There" - Radiohead
27. "All i want" -LCD Soundsystem
28. "November Rain" - Guns and Roses
(whattttt a guitar solo)
29. "Little Red Corvette" - Prince
30. "Your going to miss me" - The 13th floor elevators
31. "The last time i saw Richard" - Joni Mitchell
32. "Case of you" - Joni Mitchell
33. "Rescue Me" - Fontella Bass
34. "Wild Horses"- Rolling Stones
35. "Lola" - The Kinks
36. "Heart of Gold" - Neil Young
37. "Tracks of my tears" - Smokey Robinson
38. "Dosed" - Red Hot Chili peppers
39. "Howlin for you" - Black Keys
40. "You've got the love" - Florence and the Machine
41. "I would do anything for you" - Foster the People
42. "Sweetest Girl" - Wyclef Jean
43. "Anything, Anything [ I'll give you ]" - Dramarama


Bye. Go Cry Now
Jerk off with Sandpaper ect...