I Want To Live Moment To Moment

Anxiety keeps me awake some nights:
worrying about the unknowns of tomorrow,
but also of the things that are planned.
Will everything turn out ok?
What if...
What will I....
What do I....
All of these questions dance around inside my brain;
unwanted, unwelcomed queries.
I feel my heart skip a beat when angst rears it's evil head.

Anxiety is an illness I need to own;
and with ownership, comes responsibility:
To do what I can to improve my quality of life.
I'll do whatever it takes:
Counseling
Meditation
Therapeutic Massage
Medication
Writing!
I'll do anything to keep these questions at bay.

I want to live moment to moment,
really live, not just exist.
I need to take control.
For me
For my husband
For my children
If I can accomplish this task,
won't everyone around me have a better life?