either you do it or you don't

"Are you still brooding over what she said? You expected this answer right? Stop making a pug face & let’s grab something to eat, will soothe your stomach & ultimately your heart!”I heard the familiar voice hovering over me & interfering in my tunnel of thoughts. Oh dude get up you are much stronger than this came jade’s voice who is actually the best listener & the lamest one at cracking jokes. Who am I fooling? Am I not the one cracked right now joke or no joke, I have had heartbreak & all my dear friends want is, to grab something to eat! Reluctantly I grab my bag as my sister Kyra triumphantly smiled, looking at me & walked forward. Jade just shrugged at me & bumped into my shoulder saying “I can understand Alex but everyone knows you are so strong that no one takes it that seriously & its 3 months now! I’ll not say move on but at least try to forget it?”



I have moved on, I really have but sometimes the stupid feeling overcomes me when Judith is around & I can’t control it. I’m the easy going guy & everyone expects me to be okay all the time, even Judith for that matter! Judith! A girl of values, sweet, innocent & introvert & a great heart, the girl I fell for while we were still friends a year back. Due to my really caring friends who told me to confess my feelings for her! The answer was an expected one & for me we were still going to be friends but things turned to be the other way round! Judith started avoiding me! God alone knows why both boys & girls think in opposite directions. I remained alone & cleared my mind out of everything within few me. Days were pathetic when she would not even bother to say a hi or when I’m around completely ignore the fact! It was like I had moved on but my heart had stuck in the same place & you can’t move without your body part!



“There was a man once at the sea shore. He wanted to cross the sea & move abroad through a ship. There came a storm as soon the man boarded the ship & it suffered an accident. Next day the man reached the other end of shore alive! How? ”this is a question all of us human beings should do know .There are many like me. All moving through the same roller coaster age & crazy hormones. People break hearts, we do the same, some realize, some cry & others move on. There is nothing wrong in doing something which heart wants to at this age but there has to be a heartbreak or a lesson and that is why this time is the golden one,risky,exciting,experiencing & of course emotional! But we become so weak at that time that we cannot think straight. “if something is ours it cannot give us pain Alex” these were the last words of Judith to me before we parted in life. Were they a goodbye, an apology, a feeling of regret or heartache? Was it a new light at the end of the tunnel saying that our futures were going to be together!



As soon as the last thought entered my mind a small smile formed on my face! Yes that was the answer to my love proposal! The smile grew into a grin as I saw her coming towards me! The love of my life, the one my heart belonged to today & for the rest of my being & who will take great care of it!Either you do it or you don’t. Taking a step forward & moving on maybe be very painful at that time but even our heart adjusts to it & still beats according to the situation every time! If you don’t it not only hurts you but also the people you love. Moving on is not difficult, but having the courage to even think of doing it,is!”Which memory of your lovely lady Judith were you thinking of?”She gave me a sly smile as she moved forward.”I was thinking that she & you are actually the same love I got from life. In fact I have started loving you more today!”I laughed as she gave that fake pout for not getting the actual answer even after 2 years of being in the same relationship.”Okay, but at least now tell me how did that man reach the other side of sea without getting any hurt “she asked with a serious face. “There is always a life boat attached to a ship my dear ,the same which is attached to the ship of our lives!”.I replied as I took my startled angel in my arms! Yes, the man took the life saving boat & lived his life just as I had taken the same path & crossed the sea of love!



Love is something which crosses everyone’s path once in our life, at least that’s what we like to believe. That’s the reason we are afraid to give it a chance. But only if we knew that the fear itself manifests itself in the power of love. Even if our heart is broken it’s not wrong to give life a second chance because it gives us many! Only if we could find the will to put our hearts out there to feel the most important & beautiful feeling of life, love!