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Towels, clothes, shampoo steadily filled the hiking pack. It had been the only thing in the closet that day, and he needed her to go.

5: You are all around me on every side, You protect me with Your power

Sometimes it was nice, even peaceful if the irony can be spared After all they had to listen to the story of that time he quit the service, and praised anything she put together in art therapy because it was supposed to reflect her “inner feelings”. That was it; the ironic part. A condition that is classified by one’s emotions, and she felt nothing, knew nothing.

2: You know everything I do, from far away You understand all my thoughts

The poet in her appreciated the way her mother almost absentmindedly placed it on her pillow before leaving., like the cliché of having a small spark of hope during the darkest of trials. Now it was only a book of fairy tales, but nonetheless an alternative to Jell-O and antiseptic. But even fairy tales can help you remember. One night the pillows were soft again, and her paintings began to have explanations.

12: Even the darkness is not dark to You; the night is as the day, for darkness is as light to You

She zipped up the pack and straightened the sheets one last time. Popping the child proof seal, she thought about mistaken redemption, and how her husband probably hadn’t had roast chicken in a while.

23-24: Search me God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.