Pretty

Maybe it's all in my head
But as this disease takes hold of me
I'll wear a face you'll only dread
You'll try to hide it, the love you lost
And I'll try to forget, the day we wed
Maybe we never had a chance
Even before the monster inside me spread
You promised you a future of roses
But destiny gave me IV fluids instead
It wasn't in my control, I couldn't be your muse
I even asked God for help, and on my knees I plead
In my heart I don't blame you,
When I wake up to an empty bed
Bottles line the windowsill, the dresser and the floor
To be honest, I'm suprised you haven't fled
I hear the door bell ring, but I can't find the strength to get up
"Please, just do this for us" I know that's what you said
But the weight of what we lost, keeps me from pulling through
I knew forever was only something fiction lovers read