; too many times.

too many tears i`ve cried..
too many years i`ve tried..

too many days i feel..
like nothing in this world is real..

too many familiar faces i see..
that bring back painful memories..

too many mistakes i`ve made..
that brought me nothing but hate..

too many times i`ve tried to be strong..
when i`m weak, and always wrong..

too many times i didn`t succeed..
and you were never there in my time of need..

too many times i`ve lied..
faked a smile and said "i`m fine"..

too many years i`ve been all alone..
lost in this world with nowhere to go..

too many times i`ve written a poem..
describing how my own death would go..

too many times i`ve been let down..
broke all your promises and left me to drown..

too many times i`ve lost all hope..
in this pathetic world, i cannot cope..

too many times i`ve tried to escape..
this pain, this sadness, this heartache..

too many times i`ve wished to part..
from this world and people who broke my heart..

too many nights i`ve laid in bed..
wishing so badly that i were dead..

too many nights i stay up and cry..
thinking about everything and wondering why..

too many happy moments ripped away..
not sure i can go through another day..

too many times i`ve tried..
ending my life with suicide..

too many times i failed when i tried..
but not this time.. no, not this time..