Nostalgia

Nostalgia an emotion I know all to well
I try drowning it out with things I could do without
I cant fight the feeling of wishing to go back to an emotion
I have vaguely felt. I guess its why I am addicted to this thing called affection
because my life so far hasn't had much direction. Full of tension and running
to settle down with a person or a stable place is a wish I cant seem to achieve
I am sick of running of moving of changing and rearranging I want steady and stable
its all I ask for. Because its the only thing I cannot achieve.