Schizophrenic Conversations!

I hear you scream as i run to find you
Your not even there
My mind hears you scream again
Like the first time you werent there
I sit in a ball holding my legs head buried
I cant stop the voice's there rushing through my thought's
Its my worst nightmare its fucking scary
your image appears but how
When your dead now?
I close my eyes but ur still there
Why is this happening to me it isnt fair
You were like a brother to me
Till you hit that tree
Nine years later now look at me!
Why are you here why wont you leave?
He leans in closer and says cause its your time to be with me!