Ending, Drowning, Falling

Its falling apart,
The world is tearing and breaking,
Its exploding around me,
No place to hide, no place to go.

I'm drowning in a river of tears,
Slowly dying, slowly dying,
My brain is shutting down,
My eyes are going blind.

I'm loosing the feeling in my hands,
No strength is left to stand,
My smile disappeared so long ago,
Its never coming back it says.

I have no place, no friends, no life
I'm in the dark abyss of the dying world.
I'm falling so far in this ocean of tears,
Dear god why wont it stop?!

I want to die,
I want it over,
And yet it just keeps on going,
Not letting me have the peace and  silence I crave,

Why wont my heart and feelings die?
Why wont I stop being,
Why does it hurt this much to loose the world?
Why cant I feel nothing?

This broken hearts destroying the world,
I can see the fire, the cracks,
I can feel the earth quakes,
I'm loosing consciousness, unable to breath.

Yet I’m not dead,
I'm not unconscious
I haven’t drowned,
I haven’t hit the ground.

I’m just falling falling falling,
On the ebbs of drowning, of dying,
Yet never to touch it.
This pain  seems to be eternal,

I will never gain peace,
Never gain happiness,
Never again smile,
Never again laugh.
Yet it seems all the faces I used to care for,
Walk on bye me without seeing me,
Without seeing the eternal suffering,
Please I want it to stop,

Why doesn’t it stop?
I've tried everything I can,
And it doesn’t go away,
It doesn’t let me die,

I am doomed to an eternity,
An eternity of pain and suffering,
To forever drown in my tears,
Forever burn in the flames as the world dies.
Where no one can hear my tears,

I am nothing,
I am pain,
I am turmoil....

I am despair.