Breaking Out

Here it is again. The feeling of anxiety, creeping through my brain which leaves my mind restless. A queer yet familiar feeling that repeatedly fills my empty atmosphere. Oh, I knew this kind of scene. It is nonetheless, the thing that we called FEAR. Fear of unbelongingness, of loneliness, of rejections, of dissappointments, of failures and of the unseen tomorrow. I fear everything unknown. These negtaive thoughts gradually manipulates my life. It crawls through my bed, leaving me sleepless. Keeping me from my paradise of unlimited imaginations. Time to time, it turns the road towards my destination into nothing but a labyrinth of misconceptions. A dead-end maze of failures. -- It does nothing but to make my simple life complicated. Escaping from it devours all my time. Continuously running from it keeps me breathless. It is indeed, tiring. But all the while, I know that getting away from it was useless, for all those doors and windows were tightly shut. No matter how hard I tried to push my way out of it, it will never open nor a little scratch would appear. All of these is because I am undeniably a prisoner of fear. I am locked and imprisoned inside the cage of insecurities, doubts and anxieties. What should I do then? I keep myself busy doing nothing but to worry about tomorrow.I heedlessly searched for the key in a distant place without knowing that it freely lies in my palm, just waiting for me to grab it and hold unto it. The one that I am searching for is right before my eyes. The answer to my all troublesome questions is none other, but Him. He who bestowed life upon us. He who constantly loves us despite all our imperfections and countless flaws. He who loves us beyond anything we can ever imagine. He who made a magnificent plans for us. He who sets us free. He, who holds the key. :)