"Never Again"

Today is the last day
That I will walk this path
See the sun shinning beautifully
And feel the wind blowing



As I walk to the creek
I start to think
Should I go back now
Or keep going this way



Lets just say
I’m sick of my life
Full of abuse and neglect
And no love to feel



No one can heal me
Not even you
Because what I feel
Is fucked up and blue 


As I get to the creek
I walk into the water
Feeling cold darkness in my soul
Thinking about that I have no where else to go


Looking around to see if anyone’s there
What am I doing this?
Hell, I like even care!
Like anyone else gives a damn


Getting back to why I’m here
I start to put my hand in my bag
This triggers my mind to when
I was called a “fag”


“Slut”
“Whore”
“Tramp”
"Bitch”


I remember the day
The sexual pain
Being treated like a rag doll
My pride turning into fear


I laid there lifeless
Stinging from the pain all over my body
And in mind started to see
Nobody cared or even wanted to be near me


As I found the object that
Would end my life
I looked at it
And started to cry

Mascara and eyeliner
Streaming down my face
I thought to myself
“I’m a disgrace”


As I stab myself
My life flashes by and disappeared
My Blood fills the creek
With tears and despair


Falling back in the water
I see or hear nothing
Except darkness filling with fear
And this creek full of blood and tears


I played a game in a fast pace
And landed in last place
I’m just glad it’s over
And I never had redo this race


Never Again
Will I hear the voices of anger and cruelness
Or live my life to the fullest
Now I must lay here, in this pool of shame


Goodbye world
Oh, how much you’ll missed
But I will never get to see to it



Never Again