Confusion and Fears

I’m so confused
And so lost
It feels like I’ve been tossed
Into a sea of emotion

So many changes
So many fears
How do I deal
I’ve only lived several years
But I feel
The pain from deep within
What’s true and real?

I look to you
To get some answers
And I struggle on
When will life make sense?

I’m trying to grow
But I feel like a child
So much I don’t know
But there’s no way to hide
So much to learn
Yet I know I’m no fool…

My mom’s retreated away
Money’s tight
Working hard
Keeping up the fight
Worried about my friends
They’ve got struggles too
The stress never ends
What do I do?

Living with a close guy friend
Chaotic as can be
What’s our relationship?
Don’t ask me
Because it’s a little crazy
Not defined but
Just a mystery

And what of my future?
I struggle to see
Where even in a year
I may be
I have so many questions
But hardly any answers
And I’m so frustrated

Why are relationships so complex?
My friendships are changing
And I am too
My family has its secrets
I’ve never really been in love
What are my hobbies?
What matters to me?
What should I work at?
Who does God want me to be?

I ask that Jesus helps me
To make sense of my life
To send me into a direction
To help relieve strife
To provide peace and hope
So that I may have joy
And live to my heart’s content.