"the both of me"

I have a wall
His name is D-struction
I have an alter ego
Her name is legendary
D-struction
Was very weak at one point
But soon became strong and it's foundation continues to strengthen itself with every heartbreak, betrayal, loss or feeling of abandonment that arises within me
Legendary isnt as prevalent
But I find myself reminiscing about when she was
D-struction plasters a smile on my face even in times of adversity and has had me guilty of fabrication, falsehood, and being a phony
Legendary drinks shots of jack Daniels, pops pills, smokes, dances promiscuously, craves the flesh and is extremely charismatic
She is what the bible calls a Jezebel
She is a prisoner of the pleasures of this earth and at one point she had me believing that sin was life and I was never going to be right
When ecstasy would whisper in my ear and amplify all of my senses, legendary was the one to tell me that this was all I needed, top priority.
And when cannabis would kiss me oh so vigorously, everything i knew about this life had been altered
I was perplexed
All of the change, my decisions, opinions, perspectives
They'd fluctuate
My mind could not come to a consensus
During this time
D-struction and Legendary became lovers
As for me; I became lost, my soul drifting closer to the lake of fire, while the rest of me rapidly deteriorating
Is this an appropriate time to cry?
what should be more meaningful to me?
I knew the answer even when I was out there
When I am to be judged
It will be harshly
Because even when I was child I knew what I was doing was a contradiction to the BIBLE........