Have you ever?

Have you ever..
Cried in the shower, So you cant see your own tears?
Laid on your Bed at Night, and Just Cried?
Waited till everyone was asleep, So you could soak your pillow..
With All the Pain?
Cried because your ugly,
Or Not good enough?
Counted all your flaws, from head to toe..
To punish and make yourself feel worse?
Cried because the comments people blurt out,
Actually hurt?
Bottled up your feelings, Then let them out...
When nobody could see?
But your just a kid..
Who cant do shit about it..
They tell you to stop complaining.
You dont want to be a burden.
So you bottle it all up.
Around people your a happy ray of freaking sunshine,
But Nobody knows..
At night, when your alone..
You drop the fake smile.
You break down.
You whisper to yourself..
"I can"t do this anymore."
And just cry.