The Battle Within

I stand here before you with my soul open for all to see. This isn’t something I take lightly, not something I do often. For bearing my sole for all to see means letting you know what’s really inside the depths of me. I’m not what I appear to be, the me you all have come to know is only a sliver of what I really am. On the inside I am battling my demons, the things that haunt me all through the day and night. You will see my insecurities and my jealousy, my fears of being alone. I shutter to think of the things inside of me that no one sees but me. These demons of mine are something I must face alone. Funny isn’t it? I fear being alone, but must face this all on my own. No one can help me through this journey I face. If you looked inside my mind you would see darkness, a darkness swirling with fear. The me you all see is the shield I have put up to keep anyone from getting to close. If no one gets close than I can’t be hurt. I fear being used, I fear being broken. Truthfully I am already broken, but isn’t everyone? Doesn’t everyone have demons to face? Have you ever thought that maybe everyone was walking around with a wall built up so no one could see the deep depths of what truly is inside of everyone? Maybe someday I’ll find someone to help face what is inside me, but until then I will take on this battle alone. Fighting my demons back to the darkness where no one, not even I, can see them.