Thinking

So my friend commited suicide last night. Sent me a text, which sounded distraught and obviously looking to me again to tell him "yes you are worth it." But I had already gone to bed. I texted, called, numerous times. But he's gone. He was my boyfriends best friend. So I called my boyfriend. Didn't answer, then he called me from some number, with multiple girls in the backround, proclaiming to me how they were "drunk as balls" I instantly stopped what I was going to say. He's at a party, with girls who are drunk, calling me, for no good reason. So after saying "bye" several times and only hearing these girls, I hung up on him. And now I'm questioning his honesty, his loyalty, his love, to me. Do I have the right means to question all this? I worry about being paranoid, but I know what I heard. Now I wonder if its worth it, if he even cares about our relationship anymore.