Bad Taste

Judgment and Imperfections leave a bad taste in my mouth.

Its funny how people try to be perceive
cover yourself- so that they will think your kind
think your forgiving and not like the rest,
smile, laugh so they think your warm, sweet and in love with your life

Individually put that glimmer in your eye
so that when strangers walk by
they can know you have that live, optimistic, spirited, live, flair of electricity shallow under your skin

you jump, with that perfect and light spark
calculated in your spare moments,
begging to have everyone touch your skin
just so you might share that jolt of life
happiness that is contagious and that it causes every one to be immerced with envy

what is so much sadder yet
is not only that you really never feel that spark
its that you betray your works
the cheap paint you've used washes off


you ache so hard to make your perfect image
and then spit venom into your orbit,
thinking that your facade covers and allows you to hide,
even with your ugly words that you ignorantly take pride inflicting

anyone of shallow intelligence sees your vapid tries
rude and crass you think that you cover yourself
with your laughing, unique pictures, your tales of love
your image of self peace

an artist, a lover and most of all an acceptor of all
one who sands up for the small and deserving
you yourself try to take on that role of the underdog
no one wants you to win but your humble and pure
enough to overcome all of the cruel world and save us.

spitting out your cruel words
ignorant of how you are blatantly showing your true, repulsive colors
trying to pull yourself together and pull off your fake simple facade
you try to be that protector of your "fellow" pure, lovely kind, delicate
but only like that skin of a centennials hand 
thin, translucent, cold,and a reminder that we all have the possibility of being a ugly thing.

so keep your mask, cover your attempts to take your life
come short in saving those of your wanted followers
refuse your health not having the strength to withhold your self-conscious purges.
your starving, anemiated thoughts fool no-one

do what you must to make yourself feel better
It casts a dull shadow over you
not the bright beams of love and honor that you hoped.
not the pure acceptance and exhilaration for life that you try for

not the utter boost of confidence
that you try to force people to believe you have
because you cannot invent loveliness
confidence to simply be ok with yourself

you lack any remnant of idea
how you will even carry yourself through the tragedy of being you.
worse yet with this show you start thinking that your making it,
you look down on everyone else
and think your better then the rest.

to chastise and cast out and slice down,
putting people down makes you feel better about yourself,
pretending to be pure and something  favorable
wasn't enough to make you feel happy to be you.

now you ridicule exactly what you hate about yourself


1/20/2012