As i was thinking,MYsearch4truth&meaning

As i was thinking...my search for truth and meaning

MY SEARCH FOR TRUTH & MEANING
DARYYA KOKUZEE MAIN BAND KARNA [to set the ocean in a drop]
yaa my wasif sahab says "ocean in the drop"
drop in the ocean, all same, same same, whatever , you have given me
a good name
i gave myself a name to when i meet wasif sahab" KHOJJI"{ seeker } i liked that name
but
for a WHILE WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS A KHOJJI
than when the KHOJJ
started coming to me i had to quit the name.
i was of the belief that
when the thirsty goes to the well for water he is not thirsty enough
thirst is when the seek comes to the seeking in its seek
meeting even when you are sitting at home
meeting every moment
my search,research i didn't know i was looking for something.
not even i knew i had switched lanes,
i didn't even know there were
lanes , path,
paths different paths.
i never knew what people were asking me when they used to say
Since when you are on this path?
i would say which path?
some would say go back or don't go any further its to difficult to be here
you must have heard of rabia only so beware you cant do it being a
female.
it would appear so funny,when people took me as a female they were
always stuck with my flesh & bones nobody had the potential to see that
i was a soul not the body.
but what i learnt from all this was that
UUS NEE SUB KA PARDAA HI RAKHA HUAA HEE,[HE has protected all]
MAGAR SUB KHALII HAIN [but all have nothing ,they are just empty vessels]
who were asking me to go back were no where they had just heard of the path.
i am ,was happy i had not.
this is the sad story,
i was going to places to people didn't know why and i would know that ,
i could tell what it was all about.
BUT SEARCH TRUTH AND MEANING no hidden story
if you be, want to be? will be . you are.
than and there .
that's about all there is.
it's always to tiring to be vocal.
i am happy i cant explain much.
but you make me talk some times i don't like it when i write or want to write.
and of course i am not the best judge
and of course HE knows the best.
i am noreen
you take care