Amazing.

It's amazing that some people don't give a shit about anyone else.

It's amazing that people can go through life blindly.

It's amazing that people take my flaws that aren't my fault and blame me for them.

It's amazing that most of you.. have no idea what I've been through.

It's amazing that the people who did know.. didn't do shit about it.

It's amazing that I once cared about my sister enough to not leave her.

It's amazing that if I hadn't cared, I would have a different life.

It's amazing that she doesn't give a shit about me now.

It's amazing that I can be so sad here.. but so happy else where.

It's amazing that judges never think about the people whose lives they change.

It's amazing that I'm here.

It's amazing that I can go through life without completely hating people.

It's amazing that the guy I thought I might have loved fucked me over.

It's amazing that he doesn't have a clue who he is.

It's amazing that I once relied on others.

It's amazing that I once actually acted my age instead of older.

It's amazing that I can type this without crying.

It's amazing that my mother tried to kill herself on my birthday.

It's amazing that she's back with the guy who beat her up.

It's amazing that I've let people in.

It's amazing that they don't realize just how miraculous that is.

It's amazing that no one's asked me for the details of my life.

It's amazing that I've never told anyone those details.

It's amazing that I still cry at night because of things that happened when I was six.

It's amazing that a seven year old had to take care of a baby.

It's amazing that I'm scared of running water.

It's amazing that I'm scared because someone tried to "drown" me once.

It's amazing how cruel people can be.

It's amazing how little people know.

It's amazing that I'm not a hobo.

It's amazing I'm not walking down the street right now.

It's amazing that people can deny things that are fact.

It's amazing that I will never forget.

It's amazing that the people who say they love you often are the ones that hurt you the most.

It's amazing that sorry has lost it's meaning.

It's amazing that I still care about others.

It's amazing that the reason I don't want kids is because I'm scared I'll beat them.

It's amazing that I still have tears left.

It's amazing that I haven't tried to kill myself.



It's amazing that the majority of people who'll read this.. will write it off as angst or poetry or exaggeration.
It's amazing that this is an under exaggeration.
It's amazing that there's not a damn thing you can do.
Where the fuck were you when I actually needed you?


Fuck him.