Pain

I sit alone and I cry,
why can't my heart just die?
The pain suround me,
Why can't I let them see?
I run and I run,
Why can I never see the sun?
Why am I always alone?
Will I ever find a home?
They don't know the pain they cause me,
I know now I will never be,
Like the one they love,
So I scream as I push and shove.
The pain reaches into my very soul.
My senses dull,
As the hurt takes hold.
I carry such a heavy load.
How can I end the pain?
I feel like I am going insane!
How can anyone ever love me?
Will anyone ever be able to see?
All the scars inside.
Will I always have to hide?
I can't take anymore!
These wounds are so sore.
I try to cry the pain away,
Why does it stay?
I don't know what to do now.
I stop the pain the only way I know how.
I shut my heart down.
As I sit alone and frown.
I can no longer feel the pain.
Outside it starts to rain.
As I wipe away my tears,
Along with all my fears.
All my pain is gone,
Why can I still not see the dawn?