Nuclear Meltdown

NUCLEAR MELTDOWN

Seeing you walk away from me was the most painful sight I’ve ever had to behold.
But Love is a fragile thing isn’t it?
I lay on my bed now in the middle of the night.
I clutch your picture close to my chest with white knuckles…
The sobs wrack my body painfully, as tears stream from my tightly closed eyes, unable to hold them back anymore.
My mouth I hold open, I want to scream, but the iron ball in my throat prevents anything from escaping.
Help! I’m climbing closer to Meltdown!
This PAIN, this horrendous, Excruciating Pain!!!
I can’t hold it in!
I JUST WANT TO EXPLODE!!
I just want this pain to end!
Eventually, I cry myself to exhaustion, and eventually I pass out.
But STILL my dreams are haunted by you!
I wake up in tears,
I feel like I’m going to vomit!
Bile rises to the back of my mouth, scorching me painfully.
I cant throw up anymore. So I curl up on the couch…
Its dark but I don’t want to get up to turn on the lights.
What’s the point anyway?
Meaningless picture flicker across the television.
Some black and white movie with a stupid woman, head over heels for a man in a white suit…
He sings… Just like you…
And she smiles… Just like me…
No..no…no
I feel the tears start stinging my eyes, and the heart rending sobs cause my body to uncontrollably convulse…
No...No…no
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Pease end it! END IT! END IT!!
I’M IN MELTDOWN!
I don’t care anymore!
I can’t care anymore!
I won’t care anymore!
I CAN’T STOP SCREAMING!
I DON’T WANT TO STOP SCREAMING!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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My eyes they burn…
My voice is gone…
My throat is raw from the screaming and bile…
The flickering screen on the television…
It looks strange and fuzzy from my crying and lack of sleep…
My stomach hurts so bad. When was the last time I ate?
I don’t care.
I’m so tired.
I can’t stand anymore.
I think that’s the couch.
I’ll lay down.
I’ll sleep all I want.
Who cares about me anyway…

NUCLEAR MELTDOWN