The End for Me

its just the end for me
is so temting
when steady i try
to find
another reason be
and still breathe

its just this hurt i feel
it breaks me so
can't let go
yet somehow
still i try, vengfully
to find another reason
to breathe
and not cease

a faintish journey do i make
through this frazzled world i wind
with heavy heart and weary steps
scared of my own mind
beseech i for a flicker
of faith that can a mountain move
believing in all i cannot prove

still its just so hard to go on
with hope far gone
from mental violence
i'm aching
i'm breaking
up and down

my tears fall in surrender
of all that plagues me so
just leave me be
please let me go

beseech i for a flicker
of faith that can a mountain move
believing all i cannot prove

its just i need something
to keep on living
more than me

something breaks my wanting
to even go on being
at times i want to throw it all away

surviving hell and other things
through music, words, and strings
solace in a place
with sun on my face

but if the time
it comes
my last stitch undone
i hope it was beautiful
while sewn

i'm seeing ever clearer
gazing in the mirror
i know that i am here
and i must breathe