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These days I struggle to be optimistic, almost seems it's embedded in me this pessimistic reality.
Still I find the days passing and my struggles I know are not everlasting.
I've somehow learned I cannot control everything, still into every situation control I bring.
One of life's hardest lessons is finding oneself I'm bettin'.
Each day I learn more and, more never knowing what's in store.
Although my shoulders heavy and my heart weary my eyes are no longer teary.
I've learned to let life happen for it will anyway.I must just live for each day.
Sometimes I feel as though I'm not living but only surviving.
It's my own soul I've been depriving.
So my soul and, spirit I've begun reviving.