The place I need to Escape

My friends are all dying, I lay awake crying trying and trying to deal with decisions made by my peers i know i haven't been alive more more than fourteen years but i cant help seeing all the jeers and no cheers life is getting hard but i gotta get through I'm not gonna break my stride ill go through true and true and make sure that's all i do until i find the drive to make it better all i hope is one day some one special will send me a letter and after that life will get better and better but not until the day i get my letter for now i wears a sweater a shield to protect me from the world my life has been twirled twisted and changed my perceptions on life are a little deranged but i wanna make a change to do right and i hope that i can take flight on this blight of emotions that are dragging me down right now i feel like a sad clown permanent frown ill wake up on day and see the light right now i sleep and escape this plight, no more words time to rest than you for being a guest in my mind -Jack cervantez