What was once

inside my heart breaks why cant you see
my love for you does not want to be set free
i suffer eachday from these thoughts in my head
noone understands my wants of being dead
im suppose to be happy thats what everyone thinks
but inside i am saddened as my life flashes and blinks
i need you here with me
to stop me from this misery
to help me through these tears i cry
but instead i just ly here and ask god why
why do i have to feel this way
i want to be happy everyday