beautiful tragedy

I'm not sure if i am waiting for the next chapter to begin
or just waiting for my story to finally come to an end
but there is no happy ending for me
just a long thread of beautiful tragedy
from my unplanned birth to my untimely grave
and everything in between that I could not save
wondering what is worth saving and what is not
what I can't live without and what I forgot
knowing the material things don't mean a damn thing
as long as my heart and soul can dance and sing
but somewhere along the way I lost my passion
or maybe it was buried under some new fashion
neither of these statements are really true
one day it just turned from being cheerful to blue
not on the surface, but deep down inside
it is something that I have been taught to hide
don't say what you think or show how you feel
cuz you will be deemed crazy and cannot appeal
just keep your mouth shut and pretend all is well
while you watch them turn heaven on earth into hell.