a cry for help

I have been to a few dark places
I have seen many faces
I have felt like a goddess and felt like a clown
I have been up and I have been down
I have known happiness and I have known despair
I have been many places and yet have gone no where
I have seen good and I have seen bad
I have seen things I wish I never had
I don't want pity from people, I just want their help
but I don't know how to ask because I usually do it myself
I feel like I care too much because others don't care enough
sometimes I feel like not caring at all
and feel like just letting myself fall
but I'm afraid there will be no one there to catch me if I do
no one to hold me or help pull me through
I know I have my family and friends
but they have their own things to mend
I have always been the strong one, but now I feel so weak
and I just can't seem to find what it is I seek
I'm not sure I even know anymore
what it is that I am looking for
would someone please point me the way
to a better and brighter day