fearful

I will not be decieved by those eyes, my eyes
I gazed into the mirror but looking back was only fear.
I'm trying to make a change just go back to being me,
for what is there to be afraid of I just want to go back, back to before.
The part of me that used to be vanished.... just vanished into thin air.
But wait there is no looking back just moving forward!
I just want to be myself again.
Lurking in back of the crowd unconfident me not wanting to be seen.
only me feeling torn and torn and torn..... As I fall to my knees with cries and pleas.
God just take me by surprise.