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I am just me. |
I wish you could see what i hold deep inside i’ll never be good enough it will always be a fight i know about your past i know it was rough you shut off the world so now you are tough you dont know compassion its always been gone a pat on the back doesnt last very long let me tell you now how my life has been im certainly not perfect we all have our sins abuse from the start not a care in the world and feeling all alone my heart starts to unfold so many loud screams and cries out for help wanting and wishing but this is how i dealt now why cant you see what im trying to be everything you want but i start losing, me. im working so hard i wish you only knew but it seems in your eyes its never right for you i start to do right then at me, you fling “what if you fail” why bother say anything? not those words exactly but you mine as well have everything i worked for you sat there and just laughed “dont you see im helping?” “why cant you think it through” there’s a reason why i left im tired of never being you. now tell me, why do i try to make you so proud when clearly it wont work cause you have that doubt im not the straight A kid nor am i the brightest but my heart is filled right to the highest full of smiles and love thats just who i am empathetic and loving this is where i stand i’ve given my time my energy and love make someone feel special giving them that white dove filled with that peace through emails or the phone show them someone cares and they’re not so alone im starting to realize it will always be this way im sorry that i failed you theres nothing more i can say i will do this for myself no longer needing you you dont have to agree nor do u have to approve you will never understand i wish you only knew but please open your eyes because i am not you. someday though for you god i wish you could see who your daughter really is who i really am, just me. |