I saw your face today - A poem |
I saw your face today. I saw you look away. I know that you cannot Yet somehow I forgot To set your mind at ease. I can’t do as you please, I am not yours, your tool. Mistake me not, no fool Am I to be your toy That, at will, you employ To play, to sing, to dance, T’have your way with, per chance. I am my very own And I will make it known That who I am is me. Tis I I long to be And no one else. Pray tell, You wish to know me well? I’m hard and soft in one. I rarely come undone. I love myself too much And so I will, as such, Hurt those around that care. Take thus what I can bear Take what it is I need And to my words hence heed: I love you, that’s for sure, But myself, I love more. So tread softly, my sweet. I’ll come to no defeat. I’ll keep my head up high. I’ll hang my heart to dry. I’ll stand before you, tall. Won’t let my graces fall. Won’t let you bruise my soul. Won’t let you drill a hole Into my heart’s affair Despite that I may care ‘Bout you, ‘bout her, ‘bout us ‘Bout what we should discuss. My ache for you is real (I got a shabby deal) And yet I live and breathe And should you never leave Your jewel turned to sand I have here in my hand And nestled deep within, Embedded in my skin The power of my choice, The power of my voice. At last I understand That even if un-manned My life may seem to be ‘Tis I who needs to see That one need not be two, That I won’t live for you, That passions fade away And leave mere presence, grey Instead what once was red And ruled by heart not head. I wish not to decay T’eternal winter’s day Where rays of sun shine cold Where young love turns to old Turns to what barely lives To what no longer gives The pleasures of times past When they were meant to last When tender touch prevailed And sweetness never failed To calm tough tempers still, Warm up the coldest chill. I miss you now, ‘tis true But as the sky is blue I promise to let go The things that hurt me so, So I may live my life Not in pain nor in strife But in pleasure divine To know my life is mine. |