Darkened River

My world

My life

My being

Destroyed in an instant

Drifting past me

Down the hypothetical river that flows through my mind



Reaching out to touch it,

I just cant seem to reach

the more i try the further away it becomes.

Leadinh me closer and closer to the river edge

I see the darkness within it.



The river flows fast and strong

Deeper and deeper i fall into it

Once again i feel the pain and sorrow

Betrayal and hurt bestowed upon me by others

Pulling me deeper

Drowning in my own self loathing



No sign of help nor support

Refused help when it was offered

I am the helper

I do not need help



Ignorant

Everyone needs help

To help them out of their own darkness

ignorant to the torture i put myself through

Ignorant to the light not far from my reach



Yet the vessle of darkness pulls me closer to it



The light more appealing you would think

Its harder to reach

Yet still closer than the darkness

I am not drawn to the light



Sucked into a whirlpool of my own self doubt

Trapped inside my own bad day



Taken the wrong turn so many times

Each new wrong turn doesnt scare me like it once did.



What scares me is the salvation the light holds

once i find salvation within my mind

the noise stops

and then i will be alone



Alone

The nothing-ness within my thoughts



Now that is true torture.