I once thought

I once thought that I should kill myself
because I hated the reflection
staring back at me

I once thought I was stupid
because I didn't understand
a simple problem

I once thought about cutting myself
because of all my insecurities

I once thought I was a loner
because no one wants to be around me

I once thought I should just end my life
because I felt so out of place

That one thought turned into me
becoming obsessed with it
thinking about it...
every second... of every day

But then I once thought about my friends
and family
I wondered how much they would miss me...

I once thought that life had no point or purpose
I once thought that death
was the only way out...

But now those thoughts are gone
the memories of these thoughts
are slowly being erased....

Now I look in the mirror and say...
" I love myself, there's nobody else in this world but me"

That one thought has actually made my life the more better...
because I know I can survive...