Crash And Burn

Ever since I was young I have dreamed of been an author, spending every day hiding away in some other world. My childhood was spent running away into books, permanently daydreaming wishing my life could be more magical, that something would happen to make me more special. As the middle of four girls I felt myself grow more invisible by the day, not even my sisters would see me. Although I dreamt of a better life, I never knew how good mine really was. I grew up in a normal family, a mother, a father and 3 sisters. We lived on an estate, a country estate in Yorkshire and had everything we needed. From the outside we looked like the perfect family and I suppose in ways we were, only they were cracks just like every family. At a young age I knew that I had not been the child my father wanted, in fact none of us were. My father had always wanted a boy, you could see the disappointment in his eyes when he saw his colleges with there sons and no matter how much money he made he could was never happy with the life he had although most people went to sleep every night dreaming for a life like his. My mother knew my fathers need for a son and decided to name us so that if he got asked his fathers name at the office it could at least sound like he had sons so we were named, Alex Hunts, Jo Hunts, Robyn Hunts and finally my youngest sister Andie Hunts.

Then came the day that changed us as a family forever, a day that we could never go back to no matter how much we prayed and begged. It was a day that no matter how hard I tried I still can not remember the details which people want to know. It was the day that all my dreams burnt and my family fell apart. All what I remember from the day was how sunny it was, my mother and I had decided to go and see a new horse as a birthday treat without my sisters. I was going to call the horse Pip after the character in Great Expections, I can still hear my mother singing over the radio, it was the most beautiful sound that will forever be with me. I was sat next to her in the car, nose stuck in the pages of another book, happily smiling knowing I could of stayed in that moment forever, and I wish every day I had. I remember looking up and smiling at my mother,her long brown hair always made me jealous, her blue eyes always smiled at me. I could see how my dad fell for her she was warm and beautiful, I never wished for no other Mum because I knew I had the most perfect one. ' I love you mum,' ' I love you too hun,' those were the last words out of her mouth.