An inward fight with myself about someone I knew I shouldn't care about but found I did. |
Why do you talk to me when I ask you to go away Why won't you take the hint I've nothing more to say I ignore you, and I leave the room when you walk in I hate to see you, these thoughts my mortal sin I hate the thoughts that surround who you are When I see you come close, I run just as far And when you try to ask me my name Blinded, I walk away and hide in my shame You disgust me because you make me lust after you You make my thoughts betray me no matter what you do The ideas you spark, the scents that entice me Grabs hold, draws me near and won't let me be I hate what you do, how you make me feel Your words, your thoughts, they can't be real You said you hate me and I disgust you So why would I believe what you say now is true Why do you take hold and refuse to let me be What is it that you are trying to make me see Your heart is not without care or remorse And my love you could never hope to force I know you don't want me, you think I am repulsive You make me sick with love, how can I live The words you spoke, and the thoughts you whisper I believed you once, now just a small reminder Your silent love, my lust and desire Burning bright for you like the flames of a fire You wanted me once and now betray that dream And all I can do now is cry and scream Its over now, and I want nothing more from you You are dead to me and there is nothing you can do You were my desire, That hope and the thoughts within Now you are nothing but my everlasting immortal sin |